I do a little bit of stalking, but am still productive. DOES NOT COMPUTE.

/ Lisa / 2 Comments

So Friend decided to come around today at short notice, but she made it up to me by bringing pizza (good meaty pizza) and ice-cream.

We just sat around talking, interwebbing and watching The Ugly Truth.

There might have been also a little bit of stalking of people we went to high school with. Just a little bit.

I’m sure you all do it. Don’t judge.

After friend left, I showered. I figured it was 4pm, I might as well embrace the life of the unemployed stereotype because I might be in it for awhile.

Then went for an exceptionally long walk to try and work off the pizza. In fact I doubled my usual walk and added the entire park in. All the while Muse blasting through my headphones.

ROCK ON.

I have then been sitting on the internet for the remainder of the night and watching TEEVEE.

Yeah, this is my life.

However, I was very productive and applied for four jobs, YES FOUR!

APPLICATIONS FTW.

Three in Wellington, one in Christchurch. One of them was also a retail job, instead of journalism/communication based. One of them was not technically a job either, just a contributor. So I don’t actually get paid :-/.

But it will be writing, for a legitimate source, which is better than nothing.

An unemployed journalist must do what an unemployed journalist must do.

In my case, it may included getting any job and get out of Hastings, for my own sanity.

The money will also be nice. To, yanno, start paying off that loan.

Rant of the day goes to online applications asking for your current employer details and having the * for “you must fill this in”. OR ELSE.

I don’t have a current employer. SO WHAT DO I DO!?

Rage, that’s what I do.

Furthermore, why do I need to write all my referees out when they are all detailed on my CV, which I have attached!?

This requires a very severe head shaking.

*SMH*

And this is where I will end this post. I’m currently watching Gossip Girl on TEEVEE, yeah it’s late. *cough* 3am *cough*

Inconsequentialness is inconsequential.

/ Lisa

Writer’s block?

Yip.

Um…

I didn’t do anything of consequence yesterday (read: today). It seems to be a growing trend, yeah?

I did end up going around to Benny Boo Boo Bear’s Purple Pimp Pad to watch some movies. Due Date and The Hangover.

Due Date is so completely random. Almost to the point of why was this movie even made? However, it was still quite hilarious.

The Hangover – finally watched it! Had never seen it before and I laughed pretty much the entire time!

SO FUNNY.

And he shared his Peanut Butter M&M’s that @LittleIchiban bought him in the US of A.

NOM NOM NOM.

I did get an awesome phone call from my man piece (I think this is the appropriate description, however the vote is still on. If you wish to vote, tweet me or comment below. The options are now Boyfriend, Man Piece, Man Bitch and Meat Puppet.)

I also called my t’other Friend Hayreeeeeee. She is moving to Darwin this week so it was a bit of a catch up call and a have fun, see you around type call. I will miss her in the the whole, she’s no longer in the same country, miss her.

But the plan is to go visit! Apparently Darwin is pretty cool.

Um… yeah. We might just leave it here for now.

I did do one time job application! #progress

Um…

/ Lisa

I have only been up for about 12 hours right now. It’s just after 2am.

MAJOR FAIL.

I don’t know what it was, but I woke up at 11am, usual wake up time, all was good. Then I fell back to sleep! I don’t even know how. When I woke up again, it was just before 2pm. The only possible explanation that I can think of is that I needed sleep. But now I am here, two in the morning and I am not even a little bit tired.

Sometimes I hate my body.

I probably should have actually done something with my day, but I didn’t.

I did do some photography work and I did manage to apply for one job. That is a productive day right?

Probably should have gone for a walk or done two job applications.

It doesn’t matter how productive I think I am in a day, I can always do more. I struggle with motivation sometimes. Currently, I’m really struggling. I’m not seeing any rewards for all my effort, therefore I lose motivation. It’s a vicious never-ending cycle.

I need to see rewards, of sorts. When working, I can see the work that I have done – it ends up in print and it urges me on to do more. There’s also the added bonus of getting sweet, sweet money.

But right now, applying for job after job, I’m seeing no rewards. It might be alright if I was getting interviews for every one of those jobs I’m applying for, but I’m not.

It really doesn’t do anything for the motivation or confidence, I tell you.

OH WELL.

I guess my main motivation is getting out of Hastings again and getting my own place. It’s hard having to come back and live with parents when you’ve been out flatting for five years.

I’ve now been here for 14 months. That’s A LOT longer than what I expected.

I honestly don’t know where this post is going. I’ve just been rambling. Once again my ability to write inconsequential nothings takes over.

I achieved nothing today. There. End post.

I might be an emo-dick, but I gain a man bitch.

/ Lisa / 4 Comments

Today, I was an emo-dick. Not ashamed either.

I really don’t know what’s going on with me lately, I’ve just not had a good week at all. It kind of all culminated in me having a spontaneous cry in the shower. In which I actually felt better, sort of.

I can theorise as to why I’ve been feeling in a funk and most likely I would be 100 per cent correct on those theories.

The first would be looking for a job. It’s really starting to take it’s toll on me and with that I start thinking why does the world hate me so!? Seriously, I had a job and then I got “let go”.

RAW DEAL OR WHAT.

I’ve talked about this a lot and at the time I was fine, but it has now been two months of joblessness again. It probably wouldn’t be so bad if I had actually worked all of last year, but I didn’t. By the time I started to look for work, I’d already had six months off and then it took me about that again to find one. So sure, partly my fault, but I was not in the right frame of mind when I finished uni to work and I wouldn’t have done anyone any favours.

I gained a lot of ground while working and when I finished work I jumped straight into looking for one so that I could find one as soon as possible and not lose the momentum I had gained.

Alas, I feel I’m starting to lose that momentum. Which ultimately results in me feeling like an emo-dick.

HUZZAH!

Yeah, not really.

So all I can do is just ignore the bad thoughts running through my head and continue applying for jobs. Surely one will come along eventually. It has to. I’m awesome (I’m not being biased here, people actually tell me so. Totes legit).

ANYWAY…

So yeah, I spent the day lying on my bed doing nothing and kind of sleeping.

Although, I did manage to get Father addicted to pop-tarts. Yeah…

TOTAL WIN.

Other big event of the day was @jethrocarr and I made our relationship twitter official.

IT’S NOT OFFICIAL TILL IT’S TWITTER OFFICIAL.

We even went all vomit worthy cutesy and changed our profiles.

You can proceed to vomit now.

He will henceforth be known as either Boyfriend or Man Bitch. I am yet to decided.

ACTUALLY! VOTE NOW!

Seriously, tweet me or comment below. From now on, what will Jethro be called on here?

Dr Suess meets the two Deans.

/ Lisa / 1 Comment

I actually have to start thinking quite hard so as to remember what I did in a day. Today I even needed to read back over the days tweets.

AWKWARD.

I think this is starting to show that the days are starting to blend and be fairly similar. It surprises me on a daily basis that I can actually think of something different to write everyday.

Sign of a true writer?

I’d like to think so.

I still haven’t figured out why some of you read them either. Maybe it’s time to enlighten me? Feel free, comment box is below.

So today…

Earthquake this morning at 4am woke me up. Got the adrenaline pumping, but I was so tired I got back to sleep fairly quickly. You could definitely tell this one was bigger than the ones we’ve been feeling in the last few months.

This morning on twitter, I saw a tweet that really spoke to me, you could say. It was tweeted by Rose McGowan, but I think she was retweeting Julie Benz. Either way, both are pretty amazing actresses. It was a quote from Dr Seuss, of all people. You kind of don’t think Dr Suess can actually offer anything profound, it’s all just green eggs and ham right?

Well…

“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.”

This sums up a number of things that I believe in. You shouldn’t bite your tongue because something you say might offend someone. It’s your opinion and everyone has the right to voice theirs. Also, there are people in this world that you are not meant to have in your life. This is a lesson I learned the hard way. You won’t get along with everyone, it’s just how life is, you can’t change that. But those people who don’t appreciate you for who you are, do not deserve to know you and you shouldn’t waste any of your precious time trying to get them to like you. Cut them out of your life. That’s what I did with some people and I’m better off for it.

I really didn’t mean for this post to turn into something like that, it just came out, which sometimes is a good thing.

So what else happened today?

I received a marriage proposal from Westfield via email. I told @jethrocarr he has competition, but then @shrimp_features informed me that Westfield had proposed to her too! Westfield was playing us both! That means I *may* just keep @jethrocarr.

In other emails, got another job rejection. It stung a little, as they all tend to do. But it kind of spurred me on to get back to it. I went and registered with Adecco, but they informed me that in Hawke’s Bay they don’t get many journalism jobs, but they were going to forward my information onto the Wellington office and hopefully they will have something.

HOPEFULLY.

But it still got me into a bit of a funk and I haven’t done any more job applications. This weekend I must do some. It’s just starting to get ridiculous. There’s just not much out there. *sigh*

In a shock horror moment to me, I walked out on buying a new handbag. I think I’ll just go digging around my wardrobe to find one I can use and then save the money.

HOW ADULT OF ME.

@LittleIchiban had sent me some American food and it arrived today! Pop-tarts! 3Musketeers! Zinger!

WEE!

It is always a good day, when Supernatural is back too! I didn’t realise it started again on TV last week, or I did, but it didn’t really register. So I quickly found the first episode of season 5 and watched that then watched the second episode.

TWO EPISODES IN ONE DAY. OMG. I LOVE MY TWO DEANS. *SWOON*

Have also been put onto a new web comic that brings teh lols (new for me, at least). It is questionable content and it is hilarious.

I AM IN LIKE.

Soz for the TL;DR post. I guess today was just rather eventful and there were lots of things I wanted to tell ya’ll bout.