Today I had an appointment at WINZ. I can’t remember what they called it, but it was because I missed an employment workshop about a month ago, which I wrote down on the wrong day.

Doi.

Anyway, I rock up there explain what happened and they finally book me in for another employment workshop today.

So I waited around till 9.30 to attend. It was a lot of basic stuff that I already know, but it’s spurred me on.

The motivation is back to do stuff. If you get what I mean, to actually find a job, or at least find some more experience. If I’m writing, it’s only a matter of time till I get a job.

It’s what I love to do and nothing is going to stop me from doing it.

It’s funny how motivation kind of comes in waves. I’ve found over the last year and a bit that I will go through phases of having a huge amount of motivation, but it will slowly fade, then something will bring it back. Then the cycle repeats itself. Why can’t it just stick around? Or is that something I have to work on?

I’ve hummed and haaaed most of my life about what I wanted to do as a career. I felt I had to choose, there was so much pressure on me. But I’ve found what I want to do and I’m having trouble getting into it.

So, I’m just going to do it, whether I get paid or not. I kind of am doing it already with writing for Oh, The Scandal! But I need to do more.

Sure, I’ll keep applying for jobs that I see, but I need to get some more experience of just writing for a newspaper.

The plan: call them. There are plenty around Wellington and I’m living there currently.

Update: I wrote this a few hours ago and was undecided on whether I wanted to publish it as is, so left it for a bit. I changed a few things and now I can also say that I have another job interview on Monday. Yay!