It’s amazing how a single event can disrupt your life so thoroughly.
I was having a pretty perfect week – hanging with Man Piece in Wellington. I had caught up with friends, Greg and Dave, who I hadn’t seen in ages, and had lunch at a quaint little bakery somewhere on Featherston St.
I went to Te Papa and walked through the European Masters Exhibition and had my own private tour of Parliament with @jacksonjwood.
I hung out with fantastic people and had some casual drinks. It was a good week. A perfect week. Something that I have not had in a long time.
Then it all came crashing down.
My Mother called at around 7pm on my last Saturday in Wellington. The 19th. My Grandfather was dead.
I’d always imagined a call like this. How I would react, how it would feel, but in the end it was all in my head and I didn’t actually have to deal with the reality.
This time I did.
I’ve had my ups and downs in the last week. The funeral has passed, but I don’t think the reality has really sunk in yet. I don’t know when it will. Whether it will be a slow realisation or whether the reality will continue to hit in waves, just like the pain.
There is just no way of knowing.
And if dealing with this loss wasn’t enough, the Christchurch Quake hit far too close to home as well.
Once again, the adrenalin kicked in to know whether family and friends were safe. Some friends I still haven’t heard from, but then again, I don’t even know if they are still in Christchurch to begin with and I can’t seem to find out.
But seeing a city that I love destroyed, breaks my heart. Especially a city that my Grandfather (and family) have a strong connection to. Part of me is glad that Granddad did not see last Tuesday’s devastation.
It has been a very hard week. There have been moments when I didn’t know how to carry on. I just felt like giving up.
But for me, the way I heal and deal with situations is by writing, so I am once again here, to try and continue with my goal of a blog a day. They have not been regular at all, but I hope to change that again. I need this. It is very much an outlet for me.
So this is a quick update on what has been going on. As of tomorrow, I hope to resume my blog a day.
We’ll see how it goes…