Am I broken?

Ok, so. Just went to see New Moon and the one word I can think of to describe it is “meh”. I feel nothing for it. It was not good, it was not bad. I am neutral. If Switzerland could have an opinion of New Moon – I would be Switzerland.

But this does not make sense! I am not a hater, I am one of the many obsessed fans of The Twilight Saga. I was the one that made my friends read the books and now they are more excited than me. And in the first paragraph there is already a Twilight reference! FFS.

My level of obsession is large, maybe not as large as some, but it is decent. I have lost count of how many times I have read the books. I saw the movie five times while at the cinema, then bought it on DVD immediately and it lived in my player for the next few months. So it is safe to say I have lost count of how many times I have watched the movie. The soundtrack lived in my CD player for the majority of the year and some of my favourite songs come from that soundtrack. I follow several of the actors on twitter. I have posters and calendars and the five ticket stubs from the cinemas are kept in a box of trinkets!

This is not the behaviour of someone who thinks New Moon is “meh”. I’m having trouble liking the soundtrack, even though I love the majority of the artists on there. Could it be that I overexposed myself to the hype of Twilight and now there is nothing left to give to New Moon – absurd! Or could it be that I am squarely in the Team Edward camp and because New Moon revolves mostly around Jacob and the wolf pack, I have become disillusioned with the hype. Um, no. I love New Moon just as much as the other books.

Could I blame the fact I was in the second row of seats and struggled to make my eyes focus, therefore could barely watch at all? I don’t think so, I like sitting up the front and do so frequently – I sat up the front for Twilight.

So what could it be? Maybe it could be that it seems everyone has jumped on this bandwagon and I was an original fan before the release of the movies? But that just means I would have more people to obsess with! So that cannot be it.

Could it be the movie actually was just average? WASH YOUR MOUTH OUT WITH SOAP. Or perhaps I am just a bigger fan of the books than the movies and that is the way it will always be – just like Harry Potter. Or, maybe I need to go and see it a second time before I make any hard and fast decisions. Or could it be that Jasper just looked creepy this time round and I am secretly hiding the fact I am Team Jasper instead of Edward?

Or, am I broken? So for now, after all my ranting, I will reserve judgment of New Moon for another day – the day that I have watched it again. Because there is no way someone with my level of obsession can think New Moon is “meh”.